Thursday, October 12, 2006

At long last.. The start of something new..

Okayokay.

The great ME is here. yes, cheer, cheer on..

anyway, today's Friday the 13th!!

oh wells..

what is it supposed to be? a bad luck day?

but anyway, yeah, i agree about the friday 13th being bad luck day thingy. as in, well, i encountered it once..

like.. i was Pr.6 at that time, and i somehow managed to be able to take the bus home.. so i did. and the bloody bus broke down on me and i got so worried i half cried. as in, yeah. HALF cried.

not very funny.

i just realised too, that there are lotsa songs out there about days of the week. for example, there's this song i know that goes,"its just another maddening monday, i wish it was sunday, cos that's my funday".. there's another one wich goes,"you can kiss me on a monday, a monday, a monday... but never never on a sunday, a sunday, a sunday, cos that's my day of rest.

but yeah, hey, just wanna tell all our fans out there that, guess what, our examinations are TOTALLY OVER!!

oh yeah.

i'm really worried about the exams rachel.. i don't think i'll do well.. desmond keong has already freaked me out by telling me i half failed paper 1 and i just feel.. i dunno.. helpless..? like, yeah, i was really shocked. oh yeah, and he said you did pretty well.

so yeah, i dunno what to expect for my other subjects..

like.. math was my best subject in mid-years. i know, its scary, but i like.. yeah.. never really expected my math grade to shoot up from.. B4 to an A1..

sadly, good things don't last. i guess i'll just have to stick around with a B3 or something now.. i really hope PBL will push my grade up to an A1 or something, but, yeah right. Fat hope.

i dunno what to expect for chinese, i dunno what to expect for english. my so-called "best subjects" suck now. like.. chinese dropped from A1 to A2 and i think it'll drop to B3. and english, man.. don't talk about it. science was never a good subject for me.. so i'll score badly. i mean, i know i won't be able to get to the class i want. never. but i'm gonna take lit and geog. you? honestly, i wanted to take lit and history, because they're studying about hitler and mao next year, but yeah, i just saw it as a no no cos i basically cannot score in history.. we will dominate and rock every class we go to.. it okay..

ah, i am but a normal student.. not one of those fantasy students who are good in everything, who can do anything. i'm still struggling in my academic studies even after 1 bloody year handling 8 subjects.

honestly, i'm starting to question if i'm just about as retarded as you are, my darling sister. maybe not AS retarded, but GOING TO BE that retarded.

really, i feel like killing myself. okay, maybe i shouldn't. i remember when i was Pr.5, i told my friend that i'd like to kill myself for my chinese grades [because i got 80 /100 for my chinese] and she cried and cried and cried and my teacher actually thought that i really wanted to kill myself and had to talk to my parents.

boy, was it a fuss then. i had to go and tell them that, "hey, i was FREAKIN KIDDIN when i said that i wanted to kill myself?!! FOR HELL'S SAKE!!"

so, yeah. thinking about it now, i kinda think that i was kinda stupid. gosh, i'd kill myself NOW if i could just get 80 /100 for chinese now.

jeez, i really wonder why everyone seems like a genius in primary school and yet such a [quote from MOV] "blinking idiot" in secondary school. i mean, we're all MATURE, some more mature than others, and.. smarter.

funnily, i wish i was like.. half my current age. 14 is such a boring age. study, sleep, eat. gosh, you'll grow fat. 14. ah.. bloody boring. and i think like.. a bit upsetting too..

especially if we're gonna split. like.. 13 more days and we won't be 2S2 anymore.. 1S2 will grow to become 2S2 '07 and we're just gonna graduate. i think i'll cry on that day. funny for a person like ME to say that, because basically, as i remember it, i am not emotional. totally, utterly, uh-uh. and yet i'm here telling you that i'm gonna drench the school on the 26th of october, and that's like.. ?!?!

and we were talking about a farewell present on that day.. hmm.. i dunno what i should give my clique.. i don't even know if we're as close to each other as before.. maybe i shouldn't have joined a clique in the first place.. just hurts alot when you all gotta split. i know eunice and steph and michellina and celestine are going to a different class than i am. i told you, i was going to lit and geog. hopefully we'll be in the same class. i'll sit next to you, okay?

so yeah. no more talking about sad stuff for me. as in, in this post, no more. i dunno about future ones, but yeah. oh wells, gotta go now.

BYE!

love,
ME

11:39 PM